Thursday, November 28, 2013


I don't watch Game of Thrones.

There, I said it. You can come at me with knives & pitchforks when I'm done with this post.
(The gratuitous use of violence & nudity is something I know I won't be able to digest. By the way, just a side question: do the men, uh, look just as.. nice, as the women?)
Who needs to watch the entire doggone series when you get all the gyaan distilled into catchy nuggets on your facebook wall?

Yes, it's important to NEVER lie to yourself.
Me? I'm a lost in life, self-obsessed girl (woman? Exactly how honest are we being here?)
Not lost AT life, mind you.
It's fun being lost, I kid you not.
I used to yearn for the moment when I would find my "place in the world", and be comfortable in it.
But you know what? Screw being comfortable!
It may seem strange, but I like being lost. Every day, every person brings something new to learn from.
Every other thing you see seems to be a wake up call.
I don't know what I like, don't like, or how I'm going to get somewhere, anywhere. But even if it is  status quo till the end, it won't be from a lack of trying. :)

Friday, November 22, 2013

Imma be.. a pirate.

I had decided to be fierce, resourceful. I would be the last one standing in a zombie apocalypse, and the movie would be all about how I made it. Except, real life isn't like that, almost everyone is standing till the end, so they only make movies on the people who went ahead & fell down. (And got up, but that's another story..)

About what we I talked- about what I came to know, what you let on as if you already knew- I knew it, deep down. Turns out, fear- inherent, deep and reinforced through the years due to a pathetic need for validation from others- VALIDATION??? FROM OTHERS? FUCK THEM ALL! THEY CAN'T EVEN MAKE OUT WHAT THE HELL I'M TALKING ABOUT! FUCK 'EM!!

So yeah, meeting & then leaving too many times kinda does this to one, maybe. (Umm, everybody leaves too. I'm still scared.)

But all those people, all that sound.. are not gonna count. I'm a weird gypsy-in-my-head. Everything I stand for today, I'm gonna hate tomorrow. So why bother?

You're cool, awesome. Everything you put your mind to, is worth doing. There are people already out there, doing what you want to do. Stop with the jealousy- what's stopping you? Everything you think is a good idea, it only adds to you, increases your awesomeness.

*Cue- rousing chorus, preferably pirate-sy*

The cherished people who drop by here (thanks for the note,phatichar : nothing like a message from a horror story writer to warm the cuckolds of your heart ;)): I'm hoping you managed to wade through the above rant and reach here. I've not been ultra-busy, I've just been trying to stop anything I do out of a sense of obligation. The blog seemed to be one of those things. But it's been  months now, I still miss this here place. I do love this space, and anyone else who likes this is awesome! ;)
Anything I think is worth posting gets posted, now on. I love this too much to start hating it.