Saturday, July 28, 2012

Bad, bad post

"You were the reason I kept my eyes averted from the unofficial canteen of the college. I used to ask my friends to check whether the field was clear and resorted to all kinds of shenanigans to avoid you. Inherent dislike, I told them. But I think it was fear...-ish.

Or maybe contempt, at that time. I considered anyone who puffed on the magic dragon to be a coward. A rich loser. The fact that you were popular made it all the easier to hate you. But hate & contempt doesn't usually make one avoid the subject of hate.

No, I think I was afraid. In my mind, I was completely convinced that no amount of crap that life may hurl at you can justify any.. "sedative". But that didn't stop me from getting tempted. Sorely tempted. I don't want to compare what I was going through to your miseries. Pain probably cannot be measured and classified neatly. But the thing is, I was trying not to (pardon the cheesiness) slide down a bottomless pit, and there you were, giving step-by-step instructions on how to do it.

I remember using all my resources to come up with a thousand reasons to not do it, on particularly bad nights. I admit, hoping for all kinds of bad things to happen to you was one of my mood-lifters. You were gonna lose your hair, get all skinny, your adorable boyfriend was gonna dump you, and you were gonna OD in the rich people's rehab place.

And now, from your FB statuses, I discover that you've found God. The only argument against the "bottomless pit" which sticks for me now, is that it would be stupid to go through things without total consciousness. "Let it be raw, man!" I'm gonna yell when no one's looking.

And out of habit, I'm hoping the God you found is not the awesomeness I pray to, just some China-made fake."

26 comments:

  1. i didn't get a word of it :D

    except that theres a good looking popular chic u dont like.

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    1. Seriously? I thought this was right up your alley..

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  2. Killer closing line, Rev. Let it be raw, indeed.

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  3. hahahhaaha, thats gonna burn someone :)

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    1. Ahem.. What? I don't know whatcha talking about! *innocent eyes*

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  4. Thats some awesome piece of writing!!! spiteful, raw, and awwweesome!

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    1. Thanks yaar, nice to see you back :)

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  5. Ah, I've been thinking of trying the 'sedative'. Not for the wrong reasons. Just to get some perspective.

    Good post. Amusing title though.

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    1. Yeah, I've heard that a lot.. I guess you can be safe only if you don't "need" it.

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  6. And in other news, I think its time u come back to my 'Dark Knight' post n say "I told u so..." :)

    Yup, I'm eating my words n u were right bout Avengers makin more money than DK.. sure I can hide behind the shootings incidents and all but even if the shootings hadn't happened, I don't think it'd have gone beyond $1.3 Bn :)

    Jahapanaa, tussi great ho! tohfa kabool karo :)

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    1. Ok, 1 salt in the wound coming your way.. :P

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  7. Hahaha I read this,I feel so much good,lol,like I connect! :P
    The last line,wows and winks. :D
    Good one!

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    1. Glad it made you happy, Sakshi. :)

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  8. Well..This post is about Algebra..right?
    Its a damn sedative..i slept through all my classes.It even made me contemplate big time while choosing my majors.

    Have a wonderful summer.

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    1. Lol! That's one way of looking at it.. hope you've made your peace with algebra. ;) Thanks for dropping by.

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  9. Revacious,

    First visit. Read all current posts. Your song composition was good. I could not hear it but will do you soon. The post on murder of tree is so realistic. Who cares but a very few. Never lose confidence in yourself. Do what you feel you are comfortable at, be it singing or painting or writing. Never feel you do not have talent. Hate is a very strong emotion and harms your happiness. Just erase that person from mind because if you hate him or her the memories always trouble you and make you upset.

    Take care

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    1. A lot of your sentences are so spot-on like The Sunscreen Song (have you heard it?), I really want to follow every word you've said, right now!
      Thanks a lot, Uncle Jack! :)

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    2. Hey there!
      Nice blog...


      psst..thanks for dropping by :)

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  10. True indeed post.... :)

    Do come at my world sometime...

    http://apparitionofmine.blogspot.in/
    http://creativeworldofnoopur.blogspot.in/

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  11. hopefully by now you are out of that mood! But when you were in it, you expressed it so very well with words :)

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    1. The endeavour was to just express a mood.. the experience itself is not necessarily mine (ahem!). :) Thanks!

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  12. Teehee, the total randomness of your posts. I like that all your writings are fun and crazy. New subbie !

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    1. Hmm.. Something tells me you definitely like random. Now what could that be.. :P
      Thanks yo! Back at ya! :)

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  13. Craziness continued. But I admit you have me hooked here.
    And the stuff I deciphered here is that firstly there is a very hot chick that you hate in college who smokes weed.Secondly, from the total battiness of the post I can safely assume that you started weed too.:D

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